At my school, Saint Ursula there'll be many events this month. My class, Science 2 and Science 3 are going to make a musical drama for this 18th January for Saint Ursula's Day. The theme is "My Love, My School". (weird theme) Though I only play a really small part, me and my friends must practice EVERY SINGLE DAY until 4 or 5 o'clock. And there are still classes, home works and school works and also another drama for the language project. (~sigh)
But I still hope that this musical drama can be played well.

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Next is our main event, PERANGKO on the 23rd of January. Every year there is a special event made by our students and of course it's opened for all people not only for the students. But this time, it's different from the events before because our school's drama club will be showing their (masterpiece?), NUJUMAN!!! A William Shakespeare tragedy story that is edited by many people and mixed with Javanese tradition. The entrance ticket is only 5000 rupiah and there are also competitions ex: photography, graffiti, pimp your bag, band,etc. And a garage sale. This event's theme is............ PEACE! We welcome everybody~

Sorry if I'm late guys, I had a big trouble with my PC and I've just finished repairing it. It's almost 1 week since my PC broke down and it's already 1 week since I don't chat with my friends on MSNM. T_T But now, my PC is fixed and I can play Megaten and submit my drawings again~ YAY!
I forgot to say Merry Christmas~ -___- It's almost New Year so I want to say Happy New Year! I won't be at home at New Years. I'll be stuck at some Idon'tknowwhereitis mountain or something like that. My parents threatened me to go with them at New Years. And of course there will be no electricity in the mountains so... good bye PC... :sob:
And I changed my mind when I said I wanted to get Vaughn in Harvest Moon Sunshine Islands. I want to get Will now~ lol
And before I forgot about this important thing, I better write it here.
Note to self : DON'T ever FORGET about MAKING a FORUM for my CLASS.

I need some rest, this formatting PC makes me kinda sick and I must re-install all of my programs and re-scan all of my pictures.

I'm just updating my journal because I was rather bored looking at those programs for my programming lesson tomorrow.

Things to do :
1. Watch 2012
2. Draw many things
3. Finish reading mangas
4. Play Harvest Moon until I get Vaughn to be my hubby
5. Wanna eat taiyaki ice-cream
6. Make a new plot for my manga
7. Fulfill my promise to my class at school
8. Finish our team's magazine
9. Study for Noryoku Shiken 3, final exams at school, finish homeworks
10. Continue our project for the science club
11. Rant.

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Clubs :

Sorry for the short journal. But I really need to finish my graphic design's work right now...

The most intense and heart-rending BL game for me. I'm so addicted to it right now. The great graphics, BGM, etc. BUT the BEST part of all is its STORY. I've never seen such bloody, gruesome and angst BL game ever.


I and my team (including ) finished our radio program. For more information, open my deviation A-ON. If you want to hear our radio (it's in Indonesian) please comment here.

I can't believe that I'm still alive after those things going around me...
Firstly, I got a really bad infection on my throat and it hasn't healed for more than 1 month.
Second, my school gives me a damn lot of works and tests.
Third, I'm kinda addicted to playing LimitRO for these past few weeks, I really love my Warlock and Biochemist ~~~~
Fourth, I still have a weird feeling after eating two of my group's experiments, a tofu made from green peas and an ice cream made from soya milk (they tasted weirrdddddd)
Fifth, I haven't studied for the coming Japanese Proficiency Test...
Sixth, my scores have been going up and down and they aren't stable... I really need to concentrate on my studies more, I guess...
Seventh, I don't know how to say this but... I can't understand my own feelings. I don't even feel anything anymore.... Am I really laughing from the bottom of my heart? Or maybe am I really that lonely and scared? Scared of losing what I treasure the most... Am I feeling envy to others? I just don't understand... and maybe I will never understand it.
Lastly, I think that I've been falling down more than I realized... Whenever I saw the picture hanging at my school, the picture which contains the sentence ," No matter how far you've gone, you can always turn back." (maybe a little different than that but it contains the same meaning) I believe that I can never turn back... Hating myself, my life, everything around me... and the things I can't ever part with... Ryo, Ruelle, End Earth's Main Family and my addiction to BoyxBoy Relationship. I don't care what people think about me, maybe they think that I'm weird or whatever, but I treasure those things the most and those things are the things that have kept me alive until this very second. If they're gone... I don't think I can continue living anymore. I'm willing to sacrifice anything for them, I'm willing to loose my cage that I've put to them so that they can be happy, I'm willing to look them at their backs when they are having fun with others. I'm willing to put aside my addiction so that they don't feel strange when they're with me... And of course, I'm willing to forget my questions and my suspicions on them... I often thought and asked myself," I've been sacrificing all of myself for them, but why can't they realize it?..." .... WHY?. I can't force myself to gather my courage to submit my works here, because one of my treasured thing is right here and maybe reading this journal... I just want him to know that... I love and care about him, Wind-chan and Wg-niichan more than they ever knew. And I guess I'll keep my most important secret from them.